I recently SECRETLY randomly bought a new random touch screen phone. A super pretty on the outside but not the inside (I meant the functions..), which also means its practically a BIMBO phone thanks. Let's peep at it :D

Denise is the third member from 'J.E.D.C' to cross to the 21 mark. I'm next! :D Anyway she had her party at Cineleisure's Preview Lounge, same as Nicole lah. It's really a nice place to have a party lah.. now it really makes me headache cos I am still considering a place for my 21st. WOW and she has many friends can.. mostly from her Uni. Her theme is 'Disneyland'. We're suppose to be in costumes transforming into Disneyland cartoon characters lah. But too bad we didn't really have time to go search and rent the costumes lah SORRY Denise. But I got to say her Uni friends are all damn 'ONZ' cos they all are in costumes walking around.. supporting her fully lah can. But Jane and I did contribute also hor.. we're the receptionists :D Really hope she had fun. But I know its tiring to host a party.. especially when there is SO MANY people around to entertain. I will update on my 21st party the details soon ((:

OKAY now I realised that I am going to the same pub every friday night for usual happy hour. HAHA but the place is fun. And we know the boss.. so we sing more.. play pool for free.. drinks are cheaper for us.. this is damn awesome. :D

And I have successfully pass my course. I am officially a deployable sailor. Damn Im proud of myself. But there's many more things for me to learn on board the ship. Im still a Junior sailor. I will certainly do my best. But its only sometimes I feel motivated. The thoughts of going home daily occasionally makes me hate navy life. But I will try to get over it like ASAP lol.

Yes we laugh, joke, giggle, push each other around, eating all the while, making fun of people who walk past, shop like we first time out on streets.. haha.. this is our common hobbies which also makes us the best friends of all. :D

I feel so.. over happy right now. Because Friday is the last day of my OJT.. which also means I will be a posted crew on board soon! And my ship is probably coming back Wednesday or Thursday morning. I can't wait to see my ship crews. I miss them! :D

And tmr is Changi day. I am so going back there to see old friends and instructors. But got test anyway. Don't think I will fail. God bless lol.

SLEEP!

One more week and everything gonna turn better. Easier life. Easier job. Just a little I will be that delightful and grateful about it.

Dinner with Syimah at T2's Fish&Co. Ate Seafood Platter which makes us damn bloated. Yea we talked quite a lot.

I asked:
"How sure are you that you won't sacrifice everything.. for the one you love.. .."

Even me myself I cannot explain. I cannot confirm. I cannot tell. I just know sometimes certain things may really become that important you cannot lose. You never know what will happen next. Or what you may do can be rational or even shocking. Just trust yourself and do what you know is good for you.. for you can blame no one cos you made the decision yourself. Bear consequences and face them ((:

Monday was my first day onboard other people's ship. I was like a total idiot sitting down at the multi purpose room waiting for someone to come take me in wtf. And I didn't know anyone there. I nearly died on the spot. Anyway that fine Monday was duty day. So I spent my night there sleeping, mugging and prowling all the ships. It was excruciating because I didn't had enough sleep. Well what comes the next day lagi best.. I have SAILING! So the same old things happen during sailing..

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OKAY so I back today. Tmr they're sailing again but not me. I am going to stay at the base to do my own stuffs. There's some exam next Tuesday CB! I have to mug for it can.. cos I don't really expect myself to fail anyway. This weekend is mine.. FINALLY. :D

Okay so I waited for that miracle I can follow my ship to Tioman. Eventually I am at home blogging now so means I am not sailing with them. I feel damn emo wtf. Just manage to settle down with my ship crews and then now I am left to attach to another ship, when they are away. 8 days of inhabiting in a foreign place. I seriously do not know what to expect. God bless me. ROARS!

Anyway since I am not sailing off, Kayden aka my slut asked me out for drink last night. HAHA! Let me introduce her.. she's someone who only drink beer.. so we all call her 'BEER GIRL'. She is quite scary when she's high on BEER, not to mention those things she may do or say when she is DRUNK lol. Sometimes we prefer to address each other by the name of private parts like PUSSY and DICK heh! It's how we communicate lol. I had fun drinking and singing.. though I was super tired.. nowadays my eyes will start to close when the clock strikes 10pm?!!!! CB.

Im feeling very vexed up now. Seriously I dunno why is it always me. I should be the one going. Just because of a stupid passport it costs me chance to go out explore and experience. How depressing can it be?! I want it more than the other guy. But he is going. Im not. Thats the bottom line. wtf. I wonder how is it like to reside in some other people's ship for 8 days. :(

I'm going sailing at 3am. BYE.
I always don't have a choice.
And I don't stand a chance to shine.
fuckup.

Survived a week. Sometimes I am still wondering if changing to a different ship is a good or bad thing for me. Both ships have their own good and bad stuffs. I can't explain. Cos seriously I am still full of doubts myself. Doubting everything.. including myself.

A very pressurize and stress week for me. There's just too much things for me to learn and memorise during this one month. I know I should not look down on myself but I just am not sure if I am capable of completing every tasks given during this one month. I am so tired. So exhausted. So sleepy. So moody. So feel like crying.

I don't see myself giving up yet. I don't take short cuts. I don't boot lick. I don't try to run away when I know there's tons of shit stuffs for me to do - like mops the decks and wash the plates. WHY?! Cos I know Im a fucking regular and this is my career. I mean this is only the beginning. Just this one month.. I need to tell myself to push to my limits. But sometimes my brain just can't do much anymore when I am stuffed with so much new info to me.

Nevertheless I will try to keep reminding myself that I will not let down those who pin high hopes and expectations on me. I wanna do well.

Went singing with Gera and Bernard. Okay yes they dunno each other but since they are both k-lovers so I decided to like ask them out to sing together sua. Manage to catch up a little with them also. And we rocked the room can. We sang loudly, madly and of cos PRO-ly. HEH! I will miss them! Let's go again soon :D


Let's hope everything is good tmr. And I heard from my batch boy who is already on the ship I going.. we are sailing tmr wtf. I wanna die. Yes Im regretting now. Too bad for me. Cos I know I just have to bite my teeth and go through it. 5 years and counting CB!

Finally its our Mr Carney's turn to celebrate his big 21st. Everyone's early except us J.E.D LOL! Sorry cos Jane is always making me wait thus we are late. But never mind she treated me bubble tea just now :D


I would have expected more people to be present at the party. Maybe he didn't invite so many people lah. And his twin brother is also celebrating together (okay obviously!).. but who knows?! HAHA we have fun eating and camwhoring. I realised Joey has the same hobby as us - EAT GOSSIP CAMWHORE lol!


Hope Carney loves the watch we bought for him. It's pretty hard to find leh. Especially when Carney specifically sms you tell you exactly wad type of things he would like to get as presents LOL. He's not thick skin lah.. he's just him. That's what we like him to be.. as Carney. :D I hope the laughters and all today would somehow or rather lower his stress level in camp and make him realise he is not alone. We are always here buddy! Happy Birthday once again! ((:

Met Michelle for lunch. Wanted to search for Carney's present but didn't see any suitable. Ate Bakerzin.. their pizza is better than pizza hut.. and their seafood spaghetti is worth a try ((: Shopped a while then took cab home because we still had a lot of time in between before meeting our own friends lol. This is how rich we are thanks lol.


Dinner was with 'Eck iit' peeps. Ohhh I miss them so much. I hardly get to see them often now.. since everyone is busy studying except me who is earning my own living now lol. We had BOTAK JONES at Youth Park. It was okay for me lah.. could have been better if the service is improved. They talked like they wanted a fight ASSHOLES. Trixie joined later then she decided to eat at Cineleisure's 'BBQ Chicken'. The one I always eat with Syimah LOL. I need to leave by then cos I had to RUSH to go meet J.E.D.C! Now you all know what I meant by 'I SCREWED UP MY GATHERINGS DATE AND TIMINGS' rite?!



J.E.D.C settled down at a Japanese restaurant at Taka. Forget the name lah lol. But the dishes surely looks awesome to consume heh. I ate already so didn't order anything to try. I shall TRY one day I swear :D We chatted a lot. Same old good days when we really have time to sit down and update each other on every single thing that happen daily in our world HOHOHO! The one hour meetup with them is insufficient but is worthy of everything. :D

Watched 'Gamer'. Its a nice movie. But the ultimate psychopathic who created the real-human games die too easily. Should have torture him to death. He thought it was fun man handling other human beings.. earning money when everyday thousands die in his game. LOL. Okay in short it's worth the money lah. Try it :D

Dinner at North Point with the girls LOL. Went over to picky Zuin up and off we go to Stadium WaterFront. The bridge is awesome. The view is lagi best! We chatted. Played card game, like Taboo LOL. And we camwhored like nobody business. Ohhh please it's our FORTE! And we discovered Syimah's fetish LOL! :D

Yes. Saya dan kawan-kawan saya pergi ke rumah Syimah. LOL. We reached at around 5pm. Ate super nice chicken wings and drank a lot of gassy drinks. Played card games when Priscilla and the gang came. They are just so fun. We are meeting up tomorrow again :D

We chatted a lot. Syimah showed us old photos she kept. Me and some secondary old friends sat down and laughed at our past - how we looked; HORRENDOUS. LOL. Couldn't stop laughing cos WeiJie and Prathap keep disturbing Syimah's wardrobe and living room. I swear her house was in a mess when we left. HAHA!

It has all ended. Our young days in navy ended proudly in IMOS -the navy school. We had all the fun times. The privilege to stay in & to stay out. The goodness of classes and facilities for us to learn and progress. Thinking of all these make emotional. I will never forget the times I had with my navy buddies.. my fellow 3rd sergeants.. my juniors.. my seniors as well as my instructors. Now I will be having my one week block leave, before I head back to ship. And most probably sailing will start right after I am posted back. Arghhh.. I still prefer to stay in camp. Going to Tuas Naval Base is madness especially I have to wake up at 5am every morning. Rush for the first train.. then run to transit to east-west line train at Outram Station.. then rush to take shuttle bus at Joo Koon. This would be my routine every morning. I want my license! =(

Yeap so since yesterday was the last day for us in camp.. I organised a party at Double O. It was madness. But the songs were damn lousy. We didn't realise O Bar was playing R&B until around 2am wtf. Never mind we still did manage to drink a lot.. camwhore a lot.. talked a lot.. and made some people drunk lol. Hello the theme was 'No Drunk No Return'. LUCKY I was not down! :D
Let's look at the fun we had! ((:

OKAY I lost my Sony digital camera T2. Am damn sad now. Worst thing is I cannot remember wad exactly happened.. when I lost it.. how I lost it.. everything is a mystery WTF. Hope the person who get my camera hand and leg break or something. There's no way he can return me even if he wants to cos obviously my camera doesn't print my address on it. BUT I DON'T CARE.. TAKE MEANS TAKE. FUCKER.

I fell in love again. This time its the Samsung LCD Wide Screen 21.5" Monitor. Its Rose Black in colour. The design is GORGEOUS. The quality is SUPERB. I never doubted Samsung. Am always a fan of theirs. Now my phone & monitor & 2 MP3s are all from Samsung. They're really designers, designers with skills and talents. :D

Got the news from my instructor that I will be going to a different ship after my course. I didn't know if it is a GOOD or BAD news. At that point of time when he told me about it, my mind was blank at a moment, and then thinking everything about it at the next moment. I didn't know what to expect or how to react. Its hard.. Indeed.

I need a breather. Many things happen this week. Friends issues. Camp issues. Personally I think I had enough. Any more of those will make me go bonkers. And I admit my temper had grew hotter. But it is also because of what 'they' had done and what kinda stupid things that can possibly cropped up in camp.

As I mentioned.. maybe I am really weak inside me. I'm a weakling. I have foul temper. I have too much expectations for my friends. And maybe if you think you cannot possibly talk to me about these issues, then DON'T. I really hate it when people come asking you.. trying HARD to show their concerns (or maybe they are just 'KAYPO'.. wanna know and not REALLY concern about you).. then in the end reply your sms in a way like saying YOU are in the wrong.. YOU are a weakling (obviously they will say it in a nicer way). What's up man?! Dudes please fuck off. thanks.

Woke up at 7am. Someone try to be funny report sick last minute and didn't go for duty. So my phone rang. Am super piss off. Fell asleep again at 10am.. woke up at 1pm. Saw 4 missed call and 6 sms in my phone. Didn't care about them lol.

I know there's still 2 months to go before its my big 21st. But I was out with Mum on Sunday over only at Compass point. I had an upset stomach so she fetched me over for doctor. Then we walked past Lee Wah Jewelry shop over at a corner, she decided to buy me the KEY of FREEDOM lol wtf. I get to choose can. And I love it. She ask me to wear it earlier.. so the next day I wore it. :D

Take this chance to thanks my instructors. Other than being Teacher's Day today, my camp celebrates Instructor's Day instead. They gave us their time and passion to impart us with the knowledge they know. To that I salute them ((:


Anyway Michelle was baking at home today with her sister. She delivered her muffins YAY! It is super delicious I swear. And it look super professional also. Can sell already lah. Go open stall at void deck lah.. its a good start LOL.

OKAY I can't believe I just went to watch Final Destination 4.. in 3D somemore! Its one movie everyone knows.. whole movie is showing how different people die differently in a disgusting and puke-full way. But I still think Final Destination 3 was a little more DISGUSTING than this one. Lucky its the last part already. I am so going to force myself to bed later lol. Eeeeeewwww!! Ohhh yesss I watched it with Syimah at AMK Hub :D

My stomach is still experiencing cramps and heptic pain. Syimah told me its stomach flu O.O! I should stop my irregular meals from now on. Its not the first time.. Imagine I am in pain till I couldn't stand up and kneeling down at my living room. That's how pain it is. Trust me. =(

Not me.. of cos. Its my brother who went to Berlin this time. He will be away for almost 3 months. Gosh.. I dont think I will ever be away from home for so long ever. We sent him off at Changi Airport Terminal 2. Bon voyage! :D

Two super dogs lovers met up AGAIN! Michelle wanted to send her old phone for repair at Vivo. Im suppose to meet her for dinner.. but she asked me along.. so we went over to Vivo in the afternoon. We walked the whole Vivo until we dropped. But still I can't find things to buy. I tried hard but fail badly. I came home empty handed again lol. This is the so call 'GOT MONEY NO TIME TO SPEND AND NOTHING TO SPEND ON'. I know people sure say I should save up the money but to your info I save up about half of my salary every month :D

Ohhh and dinner was at Serangoon Chomp Chomp. The food was nice but cos we ate some food in Vivo so we can't really finish up our dinner =/ but it was really nice! HEH!

Syimah's exam period finally ended. Which also means I am so going to see her more often now! I miss her car more than her LOL. Ehhh no lah hahahahahahaa. We caught 'The Proposal' at AMK hub. Ended up eating at coffee bean at Changi Airport T3 afterwards. We took some photos. Crapped a little. And the fact that I am learning malay now.. we exchanged our INDEED lousy melayu to each other. We are more pro to those dirty words lah LOL! xD

Good 7 hours of madness chatting & camwhoring. We caught a movie too - 'UP' in 3D. Personally I prefer normal movies over the 3D ones cos the 3D specs are darn heavy, and its super inconvenient for people like me who already is wearing specs =(

We met in town. Angieee wanted to buy her shades but we couldn't find the shop -.- it just went missing wtf. Anyway we BUSed ourselves on 111 to Suntec for our awaited PepperLunch Meal! :D

And it is because many of us are leaving navy school soon. May not really have the chance to all meet up and have fun. Because of different ship's practices and schedules, and due to individual commitments. We all decided to party, probably for the last time together before we moved on to the ship's life. Juniors are there, seniors are there, even instructors. At first the situation was like HIGH and FUN, but when there's really too many people.. things tend to go outta control after some time. And it was hectic trying to recover those who are totally gone (drunk), and those who are THAT high enough to want to find troubles. Lucky I controlled myself to my limits and I know it. I need to look after them =/

Nevertheless I made some new friends and it was an experience. Total new clubbing experience haha! :D

Celebrated Nicole's 'Rainbow Childhood' 21st Birthday at Cineleisure Level 6 Preview Lounge on Saturday. Okay it really costs a bomb. But consider the fact that there is one and only 21st birthday, it can be compromised :D Anyway I still don't have the photos cos mainly are not taken by my camera. So I shall do a full and proper update on her birthday on another day. HooHaa!


Watched 'Where Got Ghost'.. a Jack Neo's film. Okay lah it is funny but some parts are darn.. really thrilling I should say. But I think its not really worth to watch it if you are considering watching it during weekends. Too expensive lah.. if watch weekdays still OKAY lor. =p

Ohhh yess forget to mention.. I watched it with my scandal Joyce and my Missy Huilin.. right after Nicole's celebration at Cineleisure lol. I am just so happy to see them. I miss them soooo.. :D

Sorry about this one week late post. Didn't have time to go dig for the photos from Gera. Think her friend very late then upload the photos to facebook lah lol. Anyway hope she had fun on that day! And loves our present for her. :D